Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Newsflash and spring cleaning, a.k.a. "Sticking my finger down the throat of life"

Here’s the newsflash part: After 22 shows, I’ve decided to call it quits on The D Words. Working a full-time job and doing four shows a week was stressing me out big-time. I was beyond my usual nutcase self, heading straight into mental territory. I’ll be forever grateful to Joe Lowers, the show’s producer, for giving me this fantastic opportunity but I can’t keep it up. Not at this pace. Perhaps the show will be resurrected in some other form in the future, but for now I need to step back. I know it’s the right thing to do.

Here’s the spring cleaning part: I’m not actually cleaning anything—I’m purging. Getting rid of shit, especially bullshit. There are certain people I’ve been patient with and certain circumstances I’ve put up with for a long friggin’ time because I’ve been trying to be a “hang in there” and “give the benefit of the doubt” and an open minded kind of person, which I can tell you is not my nature (but I have definitely come a long way). Maybe there’s something going on right now from an astrological perspective, but my tolerance for bullshit of any kind is at an all-time low and it's all going.

Yikes, don’t I sound mean? I’m actually feeling rejuvenated.

I want to make it clear that my show was not in the bullshit category; Joe Lowers is awesome and working with him has been amazing. The schedule, on top of my day job, was just wearing me out. Realizing I had to make that change brought into the forefront other changes that should be made, other areas where I realize I need to put myself first.

So in the past couple of days I’ve been purging mental, emotional, and physical crap from my life like a crazed bulimic. Deleting names from my cell phone and files from my laptop… going through drawers, cabinets, closets… on the prowl for items to get rid of and gleefully throwing stuff out. Every plastic bag I take out to the dumpster fills me with joy. I feel like I’m in a movie, dramatically sweeping everything off the table of my life with one swoop of the arm. Let things crash to the floor; who needs that shit anyway? It’s awesome.

And now for something completely different...

Here are some pics from last Saturday night. Two of my blog readers, Drew and Eric, came to my show and afterward they invited me to a party in a suite at the MGM. I met Drew last year and was delighted to see him again. Eric's a great guy, too, and I'm not just saying that because I love Jews. He's nice as hell.

Here's me and Eric. What a kick-ass view, huh?


Look, Hurricane Mikey was there, too!


I'm a lucky gal. No doubt about that.

Gotta buy more plastic bags.

18 comments:

R. Jacob said...

one can do only so much, you have done more than most.

Tara said...

Well.... That kinda sucks about the show, but that's a lot on top of working a regular job and maintaining a "life". I'm glad I got to see it :) Good luck on your "spring cleaning".

Hurricane Mikey-- said...

Holy shiat Mikey needs a tan!

Tracey said...

Ohhh Linda, when I grow up (ha), I want to be just like you. I'm doing a little purging myself these days, ditching some life sucking friends and headed back to school to get my bachelors in nursing. I'll be 40 in May and it's time to shit or get off the pot. Thanks for keeping it real!

Vegas Linda Lou said...

@ Tara: I'm so glad I got to meet you! You're beautiful and adorable all at the same time.

@ Tracey: "Shit or get off the pot" -- ha! That's my mother's favorite saying. Good for you--ditch those "life sucking" friends (love that expression) and head back to school. Nurses are angels on earth.

hep said...

Great to meet you, Linda Lou...and we could all use a periodic collective dump to feel cleansed.

hep said...

Great to finally meet you, Linda Lou....and couldn't we all use that periodic catharsis?

Rochelle said...

There's nothing like a good purging every once in awhile to feel renewed - good for you! (Although sad to see you have to close the show - but I totally understand how stressful that must have been trying to do it all).

hugs
R

Julie said...

Check your email.

Donald Riggio said...

Hey Linda...sorry to hear about the show. It was a lot to handle so quickly after the publication of the book. But, like they say "it looks good on the resume." I meant to say hi at the HWG meeting last night but you flitted out so quick I didn't get the chance to. Good luck with the purge. I hope I'm not one of the ones getting deleted. I NEED a nymph in my life. Keep your chin up.

K A B L O O E Y said...

Sorry I didn't get to see this incarnation, but will there be a DVD? I have a birthday coming up and would buy myself a nice prezzy. But... YOU DID IT! How cool. You rock. And the purge sounds terrific, and I'm trying to join you. Love those black leaf bags -- once you get the crap in, there's less chance the bag bursts and you have to see it again. I also want to Spring clean my brain, but they don't make bags for that.

Barbara said...

I love it! Good for you (not loving that you quit the show, loving that you are spring cleaning people from your life!).

You are a lucky gal to have so many cute guys to go to parties with :)

SortOfAnonymous said...

And where will it stop? Will you delete this blog, too? Quit your job? Lead a simple living lifestyle? Purge EVERYTHING? I had seen it coming for a while but said nothing. When the student is ready, the teacher will appear. So, close your eyes grasshopper and imagine... nothing.

That being said, burnout is actually good for you. After you decide to stop in time, that is. It's the eerie calm after the devastating storm. You reach a climax of hecticness.. then... nothing much matters anymore the way it did before.

Vegas Linda Lou said...

Hell, no--this blog will be the last to go! I LOVE my friends in the blogosphere, and hopefully I will now have more time to catch up with my dear fellow bloggers.

The Vegas Flea said...

I call it "trimming the fat."

One must be true to themselves, and the truth always heals clean.

Purging is good. It feels good.

Danica said...

Let's try this again...I lost my last post.

Purge away!! I did a lot of that while I was off.

Sorry to hear about your show but you gotta do what you gotta do to maintain sanity!!!

Donna B said...

OH CRAP...the hubby and I wanted to bring some friends to your show! I totally understand though, you have one heck of a schedule...YEAH!! Maybe now we can get together more often. I have a lot to share with you...will send an email when I catch a breath...had Sister and Mom for the weekend, this week we have our son in law and this weekend my hubby's friend is coming with his Mom. They are staying at the M, but we are going to get together with them. We are suppose to go to Ca the first of April...but we keep going back and forth on that decision... more later...hugs, hugs, and more hugs.

gayle said...

Maybe the moon is doing something weird or something! I am feeling like you!